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Name: Erin
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Metro: Atlantic City
Birthday: 9/26/1989
Gender: Female


Interests: Girls, Girls, Girls! black eyeliner. avril lavigne. sammi. green day. simple plan. linkin park. alcohol. smoking. weed. cigarettes. newport 100's. bowls. bongs. tinnys. concerts. music. aim. my cell phone(got stolen). hot topic. spencers. studs. chokers. jelly bracelets. chains. girls. sleeping next to hot girls. waking up next to hot girls. movies. nightmare before christmas. rings. piercings. barbells. big size gauges. american pie 1-3. my friends. video games. the sims. philidelphia. writing. guitar. getting the munchies. taking pictures. black roses. the rain. kissing in the rain. coca-cola. the smell of vanilla. the taste of vanilla. scars are sexy. monica. crystal.
Expertise: doing drugs. oh, and apparently now i'm a rapper too.
Occupation: Student


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Member Since: 12/28/2004

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

my new xanga is www.xanga.com/Lesbian_Lips. felt like a time for some positive change. hopw you all love it as much as i do! peace out, nukkas.

Lesbian Lips.


Sunday, April 24, 2005

Currently Playing
Page Avenue
By Story of the Year
And The Hero Will drown
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 “…Swim in the smoke. The hero will drown.
Intoxicating beauty tears everything down.
But still our hands are bound at the wrist.
This romantic tragedy is suffocating from your fist,
in a sea of fire…”

I really am growing up. it's like i can feel myself changing into an adult. i almost don't wanna grown up. Like where i am right now, i have freedom and i can pretty much do whatever i want but if i get in trouble, it's not entirely on me. once i'm an adult, that all changes.

bummer...

anyways, time to go roll a blunt and hang with mary. peace out, nukkas.

- Lesbian Lips.

 


Thursday, April 21, 2005

Currently Playing
Follow The Leader
By Korn
Freak On A Leash
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1. You're my bestest friend in the whole entire world. I would trust you with my life and there is no one I love tripping with more than you.  I always knew you were good at using your 5-finger discount but you truly are a kleptomaniac because you really did steal my heart. You even gave me my nickname. Now spread your legs and crack a smile ;)

2. Even though I haven't seen you for a while except for a few brief moments in my hallway like 2 weeks ago, I really do love you. It's hard to get a ride out to your house cause it's so far but I miss you alot. We used to be so close and we aren't completely distant but there's space between us. I hate that. You're so amazing and funny. You always make me feel better. And we can smoke and get high and fall sleep and I can have dreams in wonderland about hooking up with you and then ask you about it in the morning. :)

3. In some aspects, I guess I despise you. You've led me on, broken my heart, abandoned me, and then called me or im'ed me to talk about nothing but yourself. "Fix my problems." is all you say. No apology or explanation for the way you treat me. Don't get me wrong. I love you. I always will. You were the first girl i ever fell for. But I've moved on. I can live without you. I'm not going to be your doormat or your wings anymore.

4. Hmm...my little lesbian. Oh, how I love you so. Lol. So, we've been chilling for maybe 2 months now and i'm really glad I met you. I always have fun with you whether we're just chilling and talking, smoking, or eating red skittles. You're just very down to earth. One time when we were chilling on someone's porch, I had said I was ugly and you said, "Oh my god, Erin. Why would you say that? You're so pretty." You'd never said anything like that before when I'd called myself ugly so I figured you thought I was. When you complimented me, it really suprised me and made me feel special. Thank you for everything and I love you.

5. We kind of got off to a rough start and we've still had our stupid little fights since we met but nothing I can't get over. We're not extremely close because we don't get to chill often and i'd like to change that. When you pulled me into john's car the other night to apologize and be honest, I really was glad you wanted to be friends. I think you're a very kick-ass person who's worth chilling with and I hope you give me a call to hang out soon. The one night just me and you chilled, talked, smoked and then wondered into that pizza place to use the bathroom, (lol.) I really felt like we connected. I miss smoking with you and all the crazy shit that goes on around us. I know you'll be famous some day.

6. I'm sorry I was so hard on you. I treated you like you were never good enough. People tried forever to get me to see you for you but I was blinded by the ugly image of perfection imbedded in my head. I never gave you a chance or let you go after anything you wanted because I convinced you that you were nothing. Never enough. But I was wrong. You're so much better than that. I see you for what you really are now. And I love what I see.

7. You don't really know me. Well, you know my name. But that's about it. I always liked you though. Something about you almost hypnotized me. All these girls lucky enough to have you, fucked you over. I don't understand it. You've got this electric personality and amazingly hott face. I always thought you'd never want me. I used to get so nervous around you. But I always wanted to meet you and when I finally did, I felt so dazed cause you were just that incredible to me. I wonder how you're doing now...

8. You were amazingly hott in "Tomb Raider", "Gia", and "Girl Interrupted". I wanna fuck you cause you're open, honest, unbelieveably sexy, and you're kind of a mystery. I see similarities in us. We both like vampires, scars, and girls. You seem sort of kinky too, lol.

9. Okay, so we hung out for like a day and we talked and just chilled and shit. Smoked and got high as hell and we were bugging out about you're mom catching us. lol. Rolling blunts on the beach in the wind is hard as hell, isn't it? We would know. But we did it, and after a few hits you started feeling it and then just got super-stoned. Then we went out to smoke blunt number 2 and instead of walking all the way back to the beach, we just smoked in this wooden port-a-potty stand. Fun, fun. But something that I don't quite get is that you don't like yourself. I can't imagine why. You're beautiful. You're kind of the one who inspired me to change the way i look at myself. I wish i could do the same for you.

10. We used to be best friends. You came over, we got drunk, hooked up, and we were fine...for a while. But then you started not saying much of anything to me. We stopped calling each other. Stopped Im'ing. Everything. You know alot about me. More than anyone else. I always trusted you. You saved my life more than once. I can't ever thank you enough for that. i just...miss you. I wish we were still best friends.

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Saturday, April 16, 2005

Currently Playing
Let Go
By Avril Lavigne
Naked
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:::sigh:::

i'm so tired. not physically. just mentally drained. too much screaming and fighting. can't deal with it all.

this is exactly why i'm never home.

i came home the other day and found out my mommy got all drunkied up and now she's gone. off in ventnor somewhere. and she's being such a cunt. she always brings me into her and my dad's problems.

i don't care about their problems.

it's none of my bussiness. i don't care, know, or care to know what they're fighting about. they've been doing it my whole life and it just gets me in more trouble to get involved.

it's okay though. thing's aren't completely fucked up and they could be alot worse. i just need to find some bud and i'll be straight. well, i'll feel better anyway. lol. everyone knows erin's not straight. =) and i like it that way.

even as rough as thing's are, i'm still not being down on myself. i'm still really happy to just be me and be in my body and my life. when i look in the mirror now, i don't hate what i see and i am so happy i can finally say that. i don't wanna be anyone but me.

remember, what you see is what you get.

- Lesbian Lips.


Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Currently Playing
Stripped
By Christina Aguilera
Beautiful
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"...To all your friends, you're delirious. So consumed in all your doom. Trying hard to fill the emptiness. The piece is gone and the puzzle's left undone. That's the way it is..."

Life changing decision?

Hmmm...okay, so everyone's always telling me how nice, and sweet I am and how I really am pretty and how I need to have confidence in myself.

I always tell myself inside my head, "They're wrong. I'm not great. Why do they tell me that? They can't possibly think it." But now, I'm starting to realize, maybe they do. Maybe everyone's not just being nice.

Maybe I'm not that bad...

So, I've finally come to a decison. I'm going to change my outlook. Not try, do it. From now on, I'm not going to question why people like me or doubt that anyone ever could. I'm not going to put myself down or look at myself the way I have for the past 15 years because I hear about how disgusting i am on a daily basis. It is so emotionally draining.

Fuck what my parents say.

If I'm good enough for myself, then I'll be good enough for anyone who truly gives a fuck. I'm better than I give myself credit for. I'm just as good as everyone else.

And you know what? That's good enough for me.

- Lesbian Lips.



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